This week I was confronted by the Holy Spirit about an undesirable characteristic I possessed. It came as a shock to me when it was revealed, my only option was to repent and ask for forgiveness. It was a thought pattern that formulated sometime along the way. I don’t believe it was one thing but a culmination of factors including the yearning for success, self-growth, and the American dream. It started with a prompting from the Holy Spirit to acknowledge someone for their hard work by letting them know how much I appreciated what they did every day. Three days later, I finally obeyed, and this is what happened next, I was convicted by the Holy Spirit as this person shared with me how much they really loved what they did and how they were able to help others. They even teared up a bit about the joy they gained from doing a good job even if others including myself viewed what they did as mundane. A light bulb went on when I sat and truly listened to them for the first time. They didn’t need me to fix them or offer them my opinion on where I thought they should be in the next five years or how they should work to advance themselves within the organization. You see from my vantage point they were there for twenty plus years or more they needed to advance. I was wrong what they needed from me is respect for what they do and acknowledgment of its importance, and to see them. The Holy Spirit reminded me that God is a provider and He provided for me just as He provides for all His children in whatever capacity He sees fit. The Holy Spirit basically told me that I am not God, that job was taken. If God sees fit to allow people in my path to seek advice, I need to make sure that He was at the center and He will provide me the words to say. I would recognize the high performers but if I am being honest, I have not always acknowledged the ones that come in every day and just do their jobs. I was sitting in God's seat, a seat of judgment, I was a bit too uppity because I thought I knew what others needed. The truth is, we all need the same thing, God at the center of our lives. He is so loving and merciful that He revealed this to me and changed me forever. The Holy Spirit pointed out to me my main job is to share the good news of the gospel of Jesus Christ and to love my fellow men not to fix them. As I allowed the Holy Spirit to work in me, I began to see more circumstances where I failed my team. I was bent on change, however, I forgot that I was a soldier, not the commander, I forgot my role and God’s grace brought me back home. My prayer now is for God to provide me the wisdom to lead His people and the compassion to hear their hearts. Along with the courage to stand with them and allow God in me to be visible every day. As a leader I pride myself on humility, now I can honestly say as I grow in my relationship with Christ this is becoming a fact. I have the understanding and the courage to make the hard calls with compassion, empathy and the love of God to guide me. This lesson was a long time in the making, I once had a friend tell me that I had tunnel vision I could only see what I wanted and everything else was omitted, he was correct I had the world’s view I now have God’s view on this issue, to love according to John 13:34-35 “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this people will know that you are my disciples, if you have a love for one another.”
Today I challenge you with Deuteronomy 30:19 “This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessing and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live.
I encourage you to choose Christ today if you are reading this it's not too late.