As a follower of Jesus Christ, I thought I understood the scripture passage in 1 Peter 3:9 “Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult. On the contrary, repay evil with blessings, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing.” On Saturday at a hairdressing appointment, God chastised me and cause me to see myself as prideful. Let me explain a few months back I was in my office and a couple of friends visited me at work one of which was the hairdresser. They commented on a few gifts that stayed in my office for a long time without really being displayed. You see I had decided that the gift giver was not genuine. Based on her behavior toward me. I did not want to be labeled as being (fake) so I did not display them. Why accept them in the first place, I was nothing if not courteous, but I was not displaying the character of my Heavenly Father stated in 1 Peter 3:9. So God sent a Nathan just as He did with David and she confronted me about the spirit of unforgiveness in my heart for this person with scripture, yes she used the word of God. And pointed out that I was not loving the way God expects me to. In other words, my courteous action of accepting and saying thank you was not enough. She asked me the hard questions, not about my behavior but my heart. I walked in every day and treated everyone cordially, however: my heart was not in it. I was behaving the way I thought I should. My actions were acceptable in the world however, they were not acceptable to God: and he called me on it because of His loving kindness. The last five years have been a test of trials and tribulations. So much so, I found myself confessing to a friend that I want to be able to stand with God in the middle of hurtful situations that arise in life: without allowing the pain, from the hurt to change or affect my mood. I wanted to be able to see God in each person regardless of what is happening to me. God answered that confession on Saturday, He said to me you must love even when you know that the person is not genuine, even when someone despitefully uses you, I want you to love. Because through you I can draw them to me, through your actions they will see that I am a loving God. Your actions have to embody 2 Peter 3:9 “The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead, he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. How can they see how good I am unless my hands and feet are a witness to my goodness? I was able to see that God is not so concerned with my behavior alone or the things that I do this is evident from Psalm 51:6-7 “You (GOD) do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it: you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings. My sacrifice, O GOD is a broken spirit: a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.” You see I learned that even as a follower of Christ, I will continue to make mistakes but, God is so good and loving that He will always have a Nathan in the wings. This area of my life needed pruning, I am so glad that He didn’t leave me in this state.
This week’s blog is dedicated to my spiritual sister Pinkie, and all the spiritual brothers and sisters thank you for your obedience. I love you all.