Angry Trust?

Trust- and understand that in life there will be hard times, but God is our strength and He will never leave us or forsake us.

Trust and understanding took on new meaning for me when my mother was diagnosed with cancer. I prayed, believed and knew with certainty that she would be healed. When my best friend my sister fell ill. Again, I prayed and believed for a full recovery. I trusted that God would heal them both. This is going to sound strange because it is strange to write. I have come to learn that God did answer my prayer for healing it just didn’t involve them staying here with me. I was truly mad at God and I was certain that I had every right to be, I was His child why did I have to suffer like this? Then I realized that if I trusted God, I would know that He would do what is best for His children not what is best to spear my feelings. God feels our pain and that is why the Holy Spirit is a comforter in John 14:26 the word of God states “ But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.” I needed to be reminded that God can be trusted with my pain as well as my joy. Memories of them always put a smile on my face. I am reminded that if I hold on to His hands I will not be without comfort. What does trust in God look like? Mathew 14: 28-29 gives us a glimpse as it states, “Lord if it’s you, Peter replied, tell me to come to you on the water, come He said.” When was the last time we got excited about what God is doing in our lives even if it’s a stormy season? What if we like Peter asked God to allow us to join Him in the impossible, if we did, He would say the same thing to us (come)? Trusting God is a process that involves getting to know Him for yourself. In the middle of your personal storm, God is there holding your hand. We need to acknowledge, that we are never alone, not even in our anger. Even when I was ignorantly mad at God, He was still God, and He allowed me the grace to be mad, but He remains faithful.

I love you Lord, thank you for being so gracious to me.

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